being left alone with a mind like mine is actually quite dangerous..
I try really hard to make it through the day forcing myself to smile to people and constantly tell myself that I don’t hate my life, but I just am so tired. Im so tired of not being me, but if I’m me I would be so alone and my heart couldn’t take it. I wish I just wouldn’t wake up when I go to sleep at night honestly. I’ve prayed for it a few times but it just won’t happen… I’m tearing up as I write this because it hurts so much. It’s really gotten to that point. I don’t know how long I can really keep going. My psyche feels like it’s shattering and I have no one to help me.
have you ever cried silent tears where they just keep pouring down your face but you have nothing but a blank expression?